Just a Humble Farmer

I'm down in Manjimup in Western Australia and have checked into the working hostel down here. I got here Wednesday and started work Thursday so I've jumped right into the lifestyle. We wake up at 6am to catch the bus out to our farms and are off at 4 to cook, shower, and socialize a little before bed. I was looking for a quiet, routine type lifestyle to live for a few weeks and this place has part of that. However, a lot of people really party a lot and that seems to be following me around. It's not that I'm against partying or anything but that's not what I want for myself at the moment and since everyone else is doing that, I feel like I have to go to the party to be in the presense of humans.

My job for the next 2-3 weeks is called shoot trimming. I'm working in a beautiful vineyard out in the countryside. The rows of vines go up and down grass covered hills that overlook a vast lake that has geese and ducks that just had babies. This farm has avocado trees as well and I really want to stay here for the harvest in a few weeks. They said I could have as many avocados as I want and I'm going to make a huge thing of guacamole for everyone. I'm in a very secluded area and will only have 1hr/week to answer emails and do updates so you won't see much from me for 5-6 weeks or so. I'll keep working on my roadtrip story but it might be awhile until I get it up. I've met some really cool people so far, including two awesome Japanese guys. I told them about Burning Man and Rainbow Serpent and they want to come to the latter festival with me. We made Oyako Don, if that's how you spell it, which is a Japanese dish with chicken, grilled onions, egg, and melted cheese over rice.

I have been thinking recently and wondering why I am always trying to push myself so hard. Other people are perfectly happy going through their lives, getting drunk and partying, having fun, hooking up, and whatnot. I feel like I'm trying to be super serious in comparison to them. When I try to do the same as them and just party and have fun, it doesn't make me happy. I feel empty inside when I don't stick to my path of progress. I have been trying to figure out why I can't be satisfied with the standard life. I think it's because I know that there's more to us than that and having that knowledge, I can't ignore it and be in good conscience. I have always been a perfectionist and though I've been able to let go of some of that, I can't be happy with myself if I know that I'm not trying my best.

Many of you might not understand exactly what I'm trying to achieve. There is a type of freedom experienced when you're flowing with IT throughout your being. It feels like going from a life of struggle with you against the world to an effortless existence where the most difficult things are made easy. The world stops fighting you and starts working with you and helps open up doors to help you on your way. When the world joins your side, you see that there is no real enemy and never really was. From that point forward, the only things that hold you back are things within yourself such as fears and doubts. The world can help you overcome those as well and each time you pass an obstacle, you get a little bit higher and feel a little more free. That's about all I can explain at the moment so I hope that will suffice. When I write in here, I'm very aware of my readers. I know there are people who understand exactly what I'm talking about and there are those who have no idea. I have been focusing on those who might not understand me but I realize that those are wasted thoughts. I really appreciate those in my life who are on the same level and who write me with words of support. It really does help me to feel renewed.