The Fork in the Road

For whatever reason, my writing just hasn't been coming together these last few months. Part of the reason is that I've been so caught up with what I've been doing but most of the hesitation is because I just don't like writing. Despite all the praise and encouragement I've received about it, I don't really enjoy it and view it as a chore. However, there is no other method by which I can crystallize my thoughts and clear my mind as well as I can when I write.

The last month has been spent reading books and helping people. I went back out to a farm in the Victorian countryside where I did tarot readings for 10-15 people. I found that a lot of people there were feeling lost and confused and I was able to help them out with a bit of guidance. One of the things I learned is that major lessons are placed in front of us at times in our life but that in order to learn them and evolve, we have to choose to undertake the challenge. Sometimes we get stuck because we are afraid of some part of this challenge and what parts of ourselves we will need to acknowledge and improve. In effect, this lesson comes to us and says "yes" but because we are afraid of it, we say "no." However, saying no does not make the lesson back off. It will sit in front of you for the rest of your life and into your next until you are ready to face it, say "yes", learn the lesson and evolve. One of the women I read cards for was 50 years old and she was stuck behind a choice that she had been saying no to for 27 years. She realized that she couldn't escape from it and finally faced her fear of it. I talked to her a week later and she said that after she had decided to go ahead, everything fell into place to make things easier for her, like the universe was conspiring in her favor. That type of experience is an indication that you're on the right life path and the more synchronicity you see, the better you're doing. She had been struggling along for 27 years, working against the flow of life rather than with it and it had left her feeling very tired, unlucky, and uninspired. It was so good to see her full of energy within just a week of deciding to face up to her path and it serves as a reminder to me that we should never act our of fear. Fear serves to urge us towards caution but if it persuades us towards immobility, we are allowing it to speak too freely.