Continuous Evolution

Lots of time has passed since I've written seriously. I have returned from my 9 month journey to Australia, refreshed and renewed with a sharpened perspective on life. My goal for the trip was to completely let go of everything and totally surrender to the powers that be. I wanted to release my attachment to thoughts like 'what am I doing in life?' or 'who am i?' I wanted to experience the feeling of freedom that occurs when you finally stop fighting and cease all effort, trusting the river of life to take you where you need to be. I learned that opportunities present themselves and you have to grab them right there in that moment and move forward confidently. There is no time for hesitation. Move now and move with purpose. There are no failures in life, only learning experiences.

I returned to Burning Man this last August and came out of the week with two important revelations.

1) My path has been a solitary journey and I have learned many lessons by following it. However, the time has come for me to live amongst a community of other spiritual people in order to have the backbone of support to facilitate my further growth. I actually realized this during a short stint in Indonesia but it wasn't until Burning Man, when I camped with people from Santa Cruz, that I found the people I wanted to be around. I am now living in Santa Cruz with a great roommate who I met at BM.

2) I have long struggled with a career choice because I wanted to find a way to combine self-employment and financial abundance along with my spiritual path. I have a natural talent for psychology but was very turned off by the cerebral and analytical Western medical approach that was presented to me in college. It suddenly dawned on me that I could counsel others using only the positive benefits of the commonly accepted psychological approach combined with higher guidance accessed by intuition. By going back to school to get a post-graduate degree, I can bridge the gap between 'over analytical doctor who doesn't get it' and 'no real world credibility life coach.'

I moved forward confidently with my first revelation and already find myself HERE, typing this up in my room in Santa Cruz. I hardly had to put forth any effort to make it happen because the move was on my path and when you are on your path the universe conspires to help you. For some reason, until just now, I had not moved forward confidently with the second revelation and I realize that I have been thinking it would be too hard or that now is not the right time. The fact of the matter is the only thing that is keeping me from creating the reality of being an intuitive counselor is the very thought that it will be hard. Once that belief is removed, it will fall together just as easily and effortlessly as the move to Santa Cruz.

After talking with my roommate about this, we both started blurting out ideas about how to make this happen. He is an excellent web designer and can help me put together something really special that will attract a lot of attention and help me launch out quickly. The current vision is to be a young counselor for young people. I see that many psychiatrists are too old to relate to the nuances of my generation.. not to mention that their approaches are poisoned by the currently accepted "bottom-up" scientific thought modalities. They focus in on these little ideas and details and totally miss the larger perspective. If you know anything about psychology, many of the older psychiatrists still subscribe to behaviorism! That is some outdated stuff!! Some of these people should not be allowed to give advice to patients. I could go off on a rant about some of the ridiculous things I was taught in academia as well as through my personal experiences with counselors but I'll spare both you and myself of a tirade.

I feel as though I have a lot to offer the mental health profession. They could use a fresh perspective and are definitely lacking integration of the spiritual/intuitive aspect of our minds that is definitely a large part of how we operate, whether we are aware of it or not.

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I'm not completely satisfied with my ability to communicate my thoughts in this post but perhaps writing into the early hours of the morning has something to do with it. I intend to write some posts reflecting upon my travels in order to tell some stories and remember the lessons that I have learned.